Saturday, October 24, 2015

How do you tell if it's God or the devil: The Struggle Week

Let's start with this. The Struggle Week. You know that time where you're super broke, no money, your reserves are on reserves, and your forced to hold out until payday, and the week just keeps on dragging...



So yea.... I was having one of those struggle weeks. Now typically on a good week. I wake up refreshed (or at the very least not feeling like I slept with a foot on my back or whatever would make you feel awkward and pissed in the morning). I'd get to work on time, which means early, and go through the week without any surprises. The week runs it's course. That's scenario 1.

Scenario 2 - You wake up off track, get to work late, and things are just moving out of pace. Your basically chasing your day, and more things are being thrown at you. Your anxious, thinking WTF.

Or guess what, the day could be awesome, got in on time, work is flowing and then from left field your family/ friend call or text you with some BS. It takes you off track, because now your attention is on that issue, and you can't even focus on work.

So here's the solution. You catch yourself. Hold up hold up hoooooooold up. Get outtttta here lmao!
You tell the devil, your a liar and put on your headphones and listen to your Bible app. Not feeling like the word today, OK switch up to a sermon, with a speaker that usually captivates you and has you looking forward to hearing the word. Essentially what your doing is choosing to focus on God. Your realigning your perspective or better yet shifting it into realignment with God. Then before you know it, that funky Monday has turned into Thursday, and your thinking wow, where did the week go.

Now I'm not saying the devil is not consistent, he is. But he's also full of trickery, and he's pulling from hats (get it rabbits...) straight up. So however way he's reaching, the response should be to focus on God. Once you do that, anxiety, pressure, and all those emotions (rejection, insecurities...) are lifted. What comes in it's place is peace. Yea perfect peace. Mind you the devil is still reaching and throwing things at you, but their not on your level.

Scenario 2 tells you it's the devil, because as soon as you focused on God, you no longer felt burdened or distracted by what the devil was throwing at you.

Scenario 3 - You wake up off track, get to work late, and things are just moving out of pace. Your basically chasing your day, and more things are being thrown at you. Your anxious, thinking WTF.

Or guess what, the day could be awesome, got in on time, work is flowing and then from left field your family/ friend call or text you with some BS. It takes you off track, because now your attention is on that issue, and you can't even focus on work.

So you (and be you I really mean me, because this is what happened)  try the solution of scenario 2. But negative, nothing is happening. Your focusing on God, but yet the burden is not being lifted. I've listened to the Bible app but the word isn't penetrating my soul. My attitude hasn't shifted. Then I check out a sermon, but nope nada. I switch it up to different sermons and I'm still in my funk. I muster up all the strength I have to go through Monday. I wake up on Tuesday feeling worse than Monday, and get this I went to sleep by 8.

I'm in my car in the parking lot, siking myself up to walk into the office. Mind you, last night I listened to the Bible app again, listened to more sermons, hit up the prayer line, and did the same this morning. I get out of my car, and as I'm walking I feel like a huge weight is on me, and I'm dragging myself and this weight to get into this office. As I walk towards the door, I think damn, today isn't Wednesday. S-T-R-U-G-G-L-E W-E-E-K. Usually my Mondays and Tuesdays are OK spiritually, but by the time Wednesday comes by, I'm in need of some spiritual strengthening- thank God for Bible Study. But today was the day.

So I tune into last weeks bible study, which I missed, lol. Listen to that, and keep it moving for the day. Between Tuesday and Wednesday I realize it's God. There's something within this week, that I need to figure out, or learn, or do, or whatever. Hence this week is my wilderness week. As in there's no escaping it, I just have to go through the process.

Like I said it was a struggle week, cooked lunch for the week, water on water, and a work from home day, to conserve from buying gas. Finally Friday get's here, we get paid, in fact a check for something else came in Thursday at 5pm, lol. God is mad funny. But thank you, I'm not even going to play myself. I was very grateful for that.

So I'm speaking to a coworker, and I tell her this week dragged. She goes no it didn't. I say - Yes it did. Although Friday is finally here, and that has lifted the material burdens, I felt every single day of this week. So here I am Saturday writing this blog and reflecting on this week. A few things come to mind:

1. I finally read up to and passed the New Testament at the beginning of this week. I'd been stuck in the Old Testament for years. Always committing to reading the bible but never pushing through.

2. I finished reading the bible Today!!!!! Yea, can't tell me nothing, well you can lol.

3. Recognizing what a spiritual shift in season looks like. The wilderness. By look, I really mean, how it feels.

4. Coming into my own. So I was already my own (actually I belong to Jesus, you know what I mean), but now I'm accepting that next level Chanda. Won't he do it!

5. Purpose. Hot topic- Whew. I have finally figured it out. Now this is my purpose for the season. Yea I'm not sharing just yet. But it's been revealed.

Got to go do my hair!

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